One Month Later

Lately it seems like everything has been messed up.  Maybe I'm stuck on the negative, but I really don't feel like I've been surrounded by this much negativity and had this many unfortunate events stacked against me before in my life.  Maybe I'm just more mature so I can handle it?  I'm not really sure.


These days I feel like crying out in mourning and in praise.  It's such a strange feeling.

My ideas can't be confined and organized now.  I can't even begin to grasp the situation let alone break it apart and build it back in a way that I can understand.  I'll stay scatterbrained and confused until I find the start point of this and understand how this is supposed to go.  For the time being, I'll stay dumbfounded.

The Lord is near the brokenhearted, and He's been reaching out to me in ways so beautiful.  From hearing songs and laughing uncontrollably to finding the beauty in nature, to seeing the stars and feeling distant yet connected.  I'm seeing what parts of life are worth hanging on to and which parts are worth letting go.


And in the one time I have people asking me for advice, I need advice and support.  I hate being in this role, because I don't really play it much.  But more than anything right now, I want fellowship with true friends when I hang with God, too.


Anyway

Reach out to me.  My arms are short and I'm already in the dark. 

Your World is Crashing Like a Wave, But Mine Was Born To Be Saved

So I was thinking here....


The world...is...so encompassed in sin, as are we, the people that live here.  I just got to thinking about our jobs as Christians are to spread the word of God and further the kingdom.

However

you know one reason why it doesn't talk about in the Bible what else we should do, besides spread the message and further the kingdom, is because Christians are relatively a select few.  Most people WILL go to hell.  Most people WILL NOT accept Jesus.  Most people WILL fall...and some Christians will fall from grace because they no longer want Jesus.

And I'm thinking I need to get my crap together, because although grace is a gift, I don't have to accept that.  And if I believe grace has been given to me through the death of Jesus, but I am not having a relationship with Him, fellowshiping with Him, or bearing my own cross, am I really taking that free gift at all?  I would say probably not.

So I'm going to make more effort to be better, but only because my God wants it, and I want it, and I'm willing to let Him hang with me and work with me.  Not that I'm saying I'm more powerful than God, but how much easier will it be for Him to work with a willing heart?  It'll be much easier.




I love the gifts and talents I've been given, and I love my Creator, and I don't like to disrespect Him or make Him unhappy.  Our hearts are connected, and He doesn't need to constantly remind me of what I'm doing wrong, becuase I already know it when He tugs on my heart strings.   This was for me, but if anyone else can relate here, awesome.  Drop a line.

Small Town Anthem

I've been listening to the old stuff I made with Small Town Anthem and it's really good.  You should check it out on iTunes.  The CD is called "Feelin' In Me" and it's available to rock your face off.  I just played drums and had a kickass time in the studio, but its all good.

In any case, I've been workin' on some new tunes and doing the difficult job of thinning out the ones that suck.  It seems that they're all great to my ears at one point in time, then suck later, so this is an extremely difficult process for one person.  Otherwise get ready to hear it soon, and hopefully it'll melt your face and rock your socks off, though I would certainly hope that your face wouldn't be melted and you be sockless, but it's not my fault, you know?

Until then, remember that tomorrow is "Talk Like a Pirate Day" so get your pirate on and make me proud!


Brett

No Internet + Much Work = No Blogz

So this is a song I'm starting on.  I enjoy the lyrics and the message.
It is called "Fell In Love on a Sunday"



I'd like to tell you from the start
in the instance my words fall apart
I'll breathe

and blow you kisses in the shapes of hearts
every breath will be a song
I'll breathe

and feel the wind begin to rush
as my cheeks start to flush
when I tell you what you mean to me

and when we start to touch
as we both start to blush
I'll keep my innocence until proven guilty

in the event we fall
staring in the face of sanctity
I'll breathe

and in the event we stall
despite trying to appease each other
I'll breathe

and if it hurts so much
that you cry yourself to sleep
I'll breathe (for you and me)

and in the event it's good
and better than you thought it could
be...I'll sleep

and feel the wind begin to rush
as my cheeks start to flush
when I tell you what you mean to me

and when we start to touch
for heaven sakes I'll blush
and tell you what you meant to me



Keep your eyes out.  I'll be posting more soon.

Brett

It's been a few days

So I'm not really sure what to write about today.  Lately my life has been a bit busier than normal, though I can't really say how much more productive it has been.  I've been haivng lots of song ideas and not being able to choose which ones to use.  I've been letting God work a lot more, and I've had the intense desire to include Him in my music making, having a partnership you know?  It's pretty awesome, I gotta say.

Otherwise things are pretty normal.  Been working at the BBY, been looking at TV's and such.  I got decked out with a few end tables today, and tomorrow I'll be getting a new desk, so hopefully that means my productivity will also go up, but time will tell.

I'll be sure to keep in touch.  Tomorrow is the Renaissance fair, so hopefully I'll have an update with some sweet stories.

Also, I won 30 bucks at Mystic tonight, so I feel blessed :)  Have a good one errbody!

Could we lower the bar a little more, please?

It seems that in the last however many years the bar has been getting lower and lower to define what Christianity is.  Originally it was exactly what it was about - having a relationhip with Jesus Christ, the one way to get to heaven, and having fellowship with our Creator, getting to know Him and getting to know ourselves at the same time.

Then it turned into a ritual where we would go to a building called a church for one sunday a week and then say we're fans of God, go home and do whatever we want to do, and spend the rest of our week sinning, then to come back to church the next week and say sorry and do it all over again.

Then it turned into "Oh well Christians, Jews, and Muslims all have the same God, so if you're one of those denominations then you're fine."

And now it's a matter of whether or not you believe in anything at all.  If you do believe that there is a possibility of a creator then you're good.  And if you just don't believe in anything, then they need to just believe in something and they'll be okay for eternity.

Yeah freaking right.

Why don't we go back to our roots and figure out where we started growing astray?  The church needs direction again from God and not from social influences and political factions.  I'm sick of seeing this.  Anyone else agree?

Dear Mr. Zataran, your dirty rice sucks

I'm not sure if it is called dirty rice because there is something in the rice that makes it taste horrible, or maybe it's because it has the potential to make the back of your pants dirtier than they've ever been, but there is something about that rice that is slightly disturbing to say the least.